growing up.

i took a week off from social media. i always thought people who did that were silly, but now i get it. every once in a while, you need a break. so, i took a break. and there have been a lot of stressors lately. a lot of thinking and making decisions about jobs, graduate school, and relationships. none of it has been easy. and then i realized, life is never easy .. and when life becomes easy and i loose my passion, i need to re-evaluate everything. so that's what i've been doing, re-evaluating. 

as much as i was ready to jump into the adult world, i'm realizing that it can suck sometimes. there are so many more expectations and a lot more times when you have to suck it up and smile your way through, even if all you want to do is break down and cry. although it's been hard, i am really grateful for the past few months in the real world. i've learned so much, it's unreal. 

on a brighter note, i got into graduate school today. i'll be starting in may. i'm taking on the challenge of doing it in one year, which means my insomnia will come in handy. and i'm gonna get a babysitting job for when i'm not in school or studying. and when i start school, because of commuting, i'll have to get up at 5am every day. so long young, wild & free and helllllllo, real world.